again

Waking up to ritual of careful careful plan
Done right down well
No choice.
Lives are in my clean hands, my locked door
Lives depend on me
Soap
Water
Soap
Water
Soap
Water
Soap
Water
Soap
Water
Soap
Water
Again
Again
Again
A spot of dirt? (chest tight)
A spot of dirt? (can’t breath)
A SPOT OF DIRT
Breath in bursts of teary panic
A new fresh shinning bar running under thunder tap
Soap
Water
Soap
Water
Soap
Water
Soap
Water
Soap
Water
Soap
Water
Again
Again
Again

Hands red raw with
Skinned meat fingers
The air is stinging but
Shelter of gloves buries damage
Secret safe within them

Key from pocket gleaming
Carefully
in lock turn lock door locked
Step away
Turn back
Check lock
Door locked
Step away
Turn back
Check lock
Door locked
Step away
Turn back
Check lock
Door locked
Step away
Turn back
Check lock
Door locked
Step away
Turn back
Check lock
Door locked

Again
Again
Again

Key falls on ground
A SPOT OF DIRT
Unlock door and carefully inside to hide from teary panic

And so it goes...

again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again again

My clean hands my locked door my life